不甘心

原本这个时候我应该在日本东京路上, 从富士山出发下东京
就因为听了好几个朋友的劝导, 加上某朋友切身之痛, 我舍弃了这次的8天日本旅
如果我真硬是要去, 就得有5年内不要怀孕的准备which我没有 所以...

男人出发前一天我说, 为了跟人家姓氏的我的孩子, 我牺牲了
出发那晚, 我送男人去机场也目送他离开
现在的他开心的在购物旅行 心里不是很滋味 =( 我也好想好想去日本玩哦。仅因为不能拿小孩的一生来玩笑做赌注, 心里难免不甘心。也许以后生下健康健全的孩子就不会那么想, 现在还没有所以...

男人每天行程他妈的都满满的完全忽略失落的我。尼玛, 也太自私了吧 =<
(不甘心指数表接近爆表)
没wifi 尼玛就不能花点小钱信息告诉我哦!!! 让我等了一个晚上 =(
事因男人到日本的前3晚都会陪信息然后让知道都去哪里玩了买了啥 从昨天就没再信息了
老娘直接给它爆表不甘愿大哭一顿, 好啦也许想哭很久了, 就找不到契机。

我也不想保留, 放声就哭, 连我娘都放任我, 说知道我明白我。哭了就舒服了
眼泪大颗大颗落下, 我 真 的 好 不 甘 心 哦

今日感慨

脸书看到有网友感慨说时下小孩玩的是平板电脑智能手机, 躲猫猫已经不复存在
当下国家发展蓬勃, 人民荷包实在可怜的紧, 裤头都拉多一截起来, 又怎么会有时间陪孩子玩呢。
既不能陪孩子玩耍也不能放任小孩去附近游乐场玩耍, 你说该怎么办?
治安不好, 拐带小孩的新闻常有耳闻。勒索的勒索, 贩卖的贩卖出国。能叫家长放心吗?

躲猫猫是90生的回忆, 就此终止在那里。
00生不玩躲猫猫了, 玩会说话的猫, talking tom.

黑心食品

就刚才宵夜时候忽然有感而发
想想马来西亚的黑心食品不如外国差多少
说鸡肉就好了。肉鸡几乎都是打长肉剂, 而市场上充斥着多少打着kampung鸡名号卖的, 就真的安全食用了吗?
我随妈咪去菜市场几天, 我忽然发觉, 一个摊位卖的kampung鸡少说也有20几只。一个巴刹, 卖鸡的有大约4摊。也就是一个菜市场就有接近90只的kampung鸡。
全国有那么多市场, 那么kampung鸡一天的销量不就很大了吗? 供应会足够吗?
如果kampung鸡也有注射药物, 那么这消费者不就被欺骗了吗。
另外, 浸泡鱼虾的药水真的合格吗?
豆芽如此微小而且廉价的商品, 也黑心至极。看豆芽白白的多好看, 殊不知这些白白的豆芽都经过漂白了。漂白药水有多强? 喷射的工人几乎每人都穿得像太空人一样
黑心食品在这里合法因为贪污
贪污所以妄顾人命

不是没有危险的黑心食品只是没人关心
还没闹出人命呢, 等出事了再说
这就是马来西亚官员的作风

缺乏安全感

有没有人也和我一样就是爱把床都塞满满的。
大型布偶3个外加4颗枕头2张被子
猜大多会这样的应该都是女生吧

读心理学的说, 这个缺乏安全感的象征。说我希望被保护所以喜欢被东西包围
那么我不是应该睡进儲物房了吗? 呵呵

最近爱上了素颜, 自信的觉得老娘素颜真的挺不赖 (不懂哪里来的自信说)
脸蛋干净自然觉得身体也比较干净 轻松
不过身体干净才是最重要的 (生病后感言) 毒素要认真排出去哦♥
附上素颜照一张, 胆小的, 勿靠近!

担忧

男人去了kakak国公干, 我就自己在这里处理房子的事情
对于购买一间屋价如此高昂的房子, 我心里始终不踏实
问了几个长辈, 虽然长辈大致都赞同, 而且认为有能力就不是问题啥的
但是...
我害怕接下来国家经济的发展会越来越瞎, 最后连累了我们这群打工仔。
自大选后这个大便就不断的推出新东西刺激人民 刺激俺的荷包。先是汽油涨价导致物价上涨, 然后人民患糖尿率过高, 糖也来涨价。好了忽然门牌税也来湊热闹, 闹得我家这里的安娣们怨声不断
现在尼玛电费...

我的荷包怎么没涨呢 =(
这个由47%选出的政府!!! 连累了全国上下

Keep it going

Recently I had slow down on writing blog first because I'm busy then due to the exist of dayre.
Dayre is like a tumblr but in blog form. The updating is very convenient as in compare to blogger. Therefore...
Btw I will try as much to keep this blog =)

久违

好久没写部落了, 久违了可爱的网络世界
生病了2个星期多 在病倒前庸庸碌碌的拼了几个星期 所以一直忙着直到现在
因为病了, 我光2个星期多休息, 烧了大约5千至6千多的工作
除了心痛, 还是心痛

手机因为快坏了, 总是力不从心, 紧要关头特别爱戏弄我
钱没赚成也罢了, 现在手机坏了, 还得烧钱买新的
除了心痛, 我也只有心痛

总结11月我祸不单行
荷包出血, 新血没进
唯一赚到的仅是休息 而且过分无聊, 我看完了全3部曲的魔戒(unrated)
对于我的充分休息, 我相当难过和内疚
对不起了12月, 因为11月我过太悠闲了, 12月得勒紧荷包腰带了
我灰到接下来才真的要难过

忙碌的10月

终于要来到10月的尾声了，这个月的我很充实，希望荷包也会随之充实起来 哈哈
基本上这个10月，我上课工作两头烧，没有休息的日子啊
别说逛街了，我连找好吃的时间都没了 （苦瓜脸）
才明白为什么有钱人愿意花大钱吃好吃的，因为平时都忙不会有时间好好吃饭

其实10月对我来说除了忙就是出血了
出血分两种，生理上和荷包
生理上，我经证实自己的身体是能够在同一个月排两次卵的！（ hurray！）
为什么那么开心？
因为那意味着我有可能怀上双胞胎，而且可以是外貌长相不同的双胞胎，最好就是龙凤胎 （流口水）
另外一个出血就不太开心了，这个月除了得还车债，还得还保险和road tax
妈呀！这个伤啊 （泪奔）

好了，啰嗦完毕
整个月难得空闲的晚上，我决定好好休息
那个上个月买下来的书我还没翻过呢
拜！

sawadeecar 寻找泰国味道 1

一直以来我都比较喜欢酸辣的食物，自从去年开始的曼谷游，我对泰国食物一尝倾心。

那种光用味觉视觉就能让你唾液不断分泌，从舌头底部渗出，让你忍不住吞口水的食物，就只有泰国才有。

今年6月带着坏人一起去曼谷的时候，我在出发的前一天就已经病倒了。出发的早上，坏人竟然还说不要去了，我伤心又着急得哭了出来。难过的是钱通通都付了，怎么可以不去，但是身体的状况确实很糟糕。

吞下妈咪給的两颗退烧药，我不管了！我一定要去，我拚了。

在途上，昏昏沉沉，还吐了好几次。还好偶有准备，不然就吐在人家德士里了。

下车后，我多給了他100泰铢，因为实在不好意思。

啊！！！ 回来回来。离题了 ><

话说我回来以后，一直很想念泰国的美食，虽然那时候，身体不舒服，硬是吃了几道道地美食，但是我始终觉得有点点遗憾，因为.... 我吃得不够尽兴。

回来以后我开始寻找本地有在卖的道地泰国食物。

刚开始都是去那些比较高档的泰国餐馆吃，价钱贵，味道是不错，但是还是觉得.... 少了什么 

后来我发现了几家泰国馆子，就是我寻找了很久很久的那个感觉！

那种很街边很道地的feel <3 <3

这家泰国馆子是我 cousin brother in law to be 介绍的

其实我之前是去ss17的那家，那家我下次給介绍

其实上回我们点了很多菜，可惜没拍下

黄梨炒饭、青咖喱鸡、芒果糯米饭......

就在这个新宜生海鲜餐厅的路口转进然后馆子就在您的左边

就在竹林深处有没有，其实馆子在kelana sentral里面，如果不想进停车场，建议停在路边，就那个海鲜餐厅的前面。

馆子正对面的电器店。

你 york了吗？

馆子里满满的泰国氛围，大爱<3

看看，那个摊位多有味道。

右边的是饮料的摊位，左边就是沙拉的摊子

名片区

在厨房的小窗外

Live, Laugh, LOVE

当天点就点了2道菜

tom yum noodles 面条种类可以自行选择，我选了冬粉

不喜欢奶味重的可以告诉点菜的少放些奶，普通汤色应该再白些

汤的味道酸辣恰恰好，我平日吃比较辣，所以个人觉得这辣的程度很适合大众口味

 我的最爱，芒果沙拉 <3
刺激味蕾的一道沙拉，tam mamung
芒果丝的酸，小辣椒的辛辣，再搭配调味的酸甜
一口芒果丝夹带花生粒和炸江鱼仔
如果把江鱼仔浸泡在调味汁里等其吸入汁的酸甜
咬下去，汁渗出来，alloy!!!

因为不小心咬下辣椒，点了可乐，中和味蕾的辣

推荐：

芒果丝沙拉

basil leaves fried chicken (paiseh 不会翻译中文版）

芒果糯米饭

炒芥兰菜

木瓜沙拉

water chestnut dessert

地址：

Baan Ruen Thai
Kelana Sentral Service Apartment
Jalan SS 6/8
Kelana Jaya, PJ Selangor
GPS: 3.106513, 101.598445
营业时间: 每天10 am to 10 pm 

note: all picture taken using casio exilim zr1000

网购实在是...

自从我恋上宅精神, 我越来越喜欢呆在家里。
喜欢在家弄点东西吃, 在家多看几本书, 在不然拿着平板电脑拿着手机翻看网页啊 脸书啊 insta啊
我原本也觉得自己自从宅在家以后为荷包省了很多很多, 直到...
泥马 到底谁发明了网购

在翻脸书时候看见了购物网页, 点进去翻翻, 我心动了
再翻insta的时候看见人家网购的照片, 我开始守不住了
到最后淘宝... 我失心疯了

这个网购真的太方便了, 就点点看看, 看图片看买家评论, 然后就沦陷了。
每回网购了能从邮差手上签收战利品的感觉真的很奇妙
因为等待的过程因为未知, 所以更加刺激, 充满期待。

网购的方便让我的荷包......
还好 我现在理智多了
已经过了尝鲜期
但是... 这个尝鲜期的代价大啊

Tak nak!

一直以来我都抱着这种想法过日子, 别人的生活, 不管她/他做什么都与我无关, 也不会偏激的批评, 因为那是她的生活, 她的决定, 干你屁事, 管好自己了再批评别人。

拿整容来说, 我不觉得有什么大不了。个人觉得整容就是动刀的化妆手法, 不过化妆是暂时性的, 卸了就带回原形; 整容是大成本大制作, 不必卸, 后遗症什么的我不知道。
反正前者后者都是易容就是了, 为没自信的添加自信分, 为容貌加分。(前提是化妆技术不错的情况下)
很多人狠狠批评本地一位自称模特的女生整容什么的, 我觉得批评她的人都无聊, 看韩国艺人不都拾过才大红大紫。

虽然说管好自己才批评人家, 但是有一件事我忍不住想发牢骚。
亲爱的烟民们,
我明白抽烟呢是你们家的事, 我不应该说些什么, 但是可以在抽烟的时候体恤一下我们那些不抽烟的人吗?
抽烟可以, 但是你不觉得在一个室内冷气房抽烟很不对吗? 特别在房内还有几个不抽烟的可怜虫呢。
抽烟可以, 但是在有小孩的地方抽烟, 那样好吗?
抽烟是你家的事, 但是可以把点燃的香烟往高点的地方拿着吗? 你那样放在脚边, 不能考虑一下经过的人吗? 你的烟头是会烫伤人的

其实大家都知道二手烟会带来的健康影响, 整容不会为其他不整容的人带来什么负面的影响, 但是抽烟绝对会。
下次点香烟的时候, 多为别人着想吧。

心情录: 善待自己

熬的黑眼圈是自己活该
每晚撑着不睡, 以为那样可以换来和你的一点时间
每天守着手机, 以为可以等你信息来就回复, 可以多说上几句话

傻事, 我不干了
只有我傻傻的在坚持个屁
有就有吧, 没有就算了
只有一个人在乎的事, 不干了

既然压力, 不委屈自己了
算了吧
不勉强了

一辈子的时间不长, 我决定好好对自己

汽油价调涨 小市民心声

特别声明, 若是垃圾支持者请关闭此tab。

抱着半信半疑的心情, 我期许祈祷这不会是真的。
但是... 汽油价刚经新闻确实涨20仙。

亲爱的垃圾,
涨价?!
关于你的说辞我实在不能接受。
关于涨汽油价, 通过减少津贴进而改善赤字
你他妈少点进口袋 少点派钱给你的党羽 少乱花钱贿赂 赤字自然就会改善
还有那个说什么会调涨一马援助金的数字。
你的援助金够用吗?
援助些什么?
汽油自上次调涨以后, 物价通通一并涨价。虽然油价后来有调低了点点, 但是物价还不是remain the same? 物价没有下价啊!!!
好了, 在这么一个苦不堪言的时候, 你来个雪上加霜, 爽! 物价铁定又涨!
你说汽油才起一点, 政府津贴多少怎样怎样, 人民不满足。
当然不满足。你看, 物价都在什么价位了。
涨价会产生的一个连锁效应, 你看到了吗?

吸血鬼!!! 吸血鬼!!!
我国人民的薪金你有检讨吗?
对于一个才毕业打工的白领, 薪资2千元的情况下, 要怎么应对高涨的物价。

可怜我们拿的薄粮度日的人民
接下来的日子......
忍不住想抱怨, 那些垃圾支持者, 谢谢你
谢谢你累人累街坊
谢谢你白痴无知脑残!!! 谢谢你贪了他给你的一点甜头害了自己和比人
给你一颗糖, 要你一间厂
很好, 大家, 辛苦了。

5年后, 垃圾要送去焚化场!!! 绝对不可以留, 留了就会是祸根

K.o 出场

不知道男人怎么想
可是就女人, 机会给你, 一次两次三次, 她都愿意等你采取行动
男人是不是就真的觉得她爱你所以就愿意等你, 把granted当作理所当然了
男人, 会等你的傻女人, 她是真的爱你

若真爱了, 那为什么最后离开?
因为心死了
就和那个street fighter一样, 被击中然后受伤一次两次三次
Hp bar最后一点血, 最后一击, k.o.出场。

世上没有所谓理所当然的东西
她没有必要理所当然的等你
她没有必要理所当然付出

你若选择了自私, 她也可以。
外头多的是愿意拥有珍惜你不懂珍惜的

最安全国家

不知道有没有人看过那个在机场播放的影片, start with welcome to the safest country in southeast asia。
上个星期我去机场接我家男人时候看见了这个短片, 我不记得当时我是什么表情, 只记得看完短片, 我回过头看到那个盯着我看的男人的表情。我想, 我看荧幕时候的表情一定很难看

我确实觉得很讽刺
到底是什么样的人有那样子的厚脸皮会那样self claim !!!
甚至比新国还要安全?
我的天啊 (翻白眼)
我国的安全治安水平在外国人的眼里都烂死了 还有服务业的专业和态度都没有很好的评价好吗?

辛勤的警察先生们一天到晚就光在路上设路障, 搾搾搾可怜人的钱。
去扫那些永远抓不到人的毒品舱, 我问, 那个刑事科的证据房里的毒品都怎么处理了? 大戏演完了, 物归原主了吗?
花一堆预算摆什么pondok结果有掠夺案发生, 他们装没看见, 受害者事后追究, 他们说不知道没看见。

高官们的住家都被爆窃了, 高官遇劫, 还能拔枪自卫。我们普罗大众呢?
那个不是说持有枪械是犯法的吗? 那为什么你们就可以拥有枪械?

这种掩耳盗铃的做法就只有这些被金钱蒙蔽良知双眼的腐败政治内部才有勇气作的。
最安全...
你们口袋里的钱就安全

56岁了

8月快结束了, 很快就要进入我最爱的9月份。
等等, 那个, 哦, 我忘了还有国庆日还没过呢,却已经等不及进9月。
以前还在华小国中高中时候, 还会"记得" 这个节日。

记得的原因:
1 学校每年在7月中就会宣布要每一个课室都布置成国庆主题, 然后校方会颁发证书奖状给勝出的班级。
2 是学校假期。
第二个原因很强吧! 也很诚恳, 哈哈

自离开校园以后就慢慢忘记这个节日了。私立大学不会特别布置校园迎接国庆日, 再加上个人是翘课的翘楚, 假期不假期的不是重点, 只要我觉得哪天不想上课, 那天就是假期。再加上我的工作都是不定时的, 不会像那些白领那样紧盯日历上的黄色格子。
另外早些年还会在路上看到一些爱国精英在车子放小国旗, 再不然一些商家也会挂国旗在店铺。去年依稀可以看见这些画面, 国庆日的到来还是早早就被提醒了。
今年....
是我一个那样认为而已吗?
是不是没有看见放国旗的车子? 是不是没看见商家挂国旗? 是不是?

是人民对国家失望了吗? 不爱国了吗?
就我一个人而言, 我淡忘了国庆日因为我确实觉得失望, 所以选择忘记。我难过的是现在的马来西亚不再和那些年一样。
贪污, 舞弊, 不公, 政治腐败, 治安亮红灯, 政客煽动种族议题......
别问我为什么不爱国。
我爱这片土地, 我也爱我身边的各个种族同胞, 我们和睦相处。我乐得窝再这个没有天灾的土地。
我恨的是那些玩弄摆布爱这片土地的我们的那些人。

我更恨的是我缴的税务都养了这么一大群废物人渣。

今年他们也没大费周章布置这个那个, 看来是花光预算了。
那那些预算哪去了? 在TMD他们的口袋里

冬菇, 辛苦你争取独立, 心疼你爱的土地被糟蹋成了这样。
趁我还记得, 马来西亚, 56周年快乐。

假如你是鱼

有人告诉我, 应该要学鱼缸里的鱼儿那样无忧无虑的快乐游来游去。

鱼缸里的鱼儿真的开心游泳吗? 我不知道。
假如它们真的开心那是因为它们不必为了三餐奔波, 不必为了房贷车贷每日开销烦恼

但是至少它们知足, 即使只是小小一个鱼缸的活动空间就认为足够, 那样很不错
等它们知道大海那样宽敞, 可以游更远了, 他们还会满足一个鱼缸的活动空间吗?

无际大海的代价, 就是自己讨食物, 同类非同类的竞争, 还有险恶的环境。
它们会放弃舒适但是空间局限鱼缸还是辽阔无际但是充满危机的未知未来。

人在江湖, 身不由己。
这话, 我确确实实尝到了, 这其中的甘和苦。
如果是你, 你会选择前者还是后者?
我选择后者, 你呢?

《激战》演员逐个看

先说这个, 我不是专业演员, 不懂演戏, 仅以一名观众角度说评。

<激战>从海报上看就已经是一部有帅哥和肌肉的搏斗电影。

彭于妟集帅气的脸蛋和壮硕的身材体格, 哪个女生眼睛不吃冰淇淋, 看着就让人心跳不已。看他痛苦的表情, 痛! 看他搏斗的时候, 我为他捏一把又一把的冷汗。还有那些脏兮兮的他，为那个稍稚气的脸蛋添加了不少男子气概。

坏男孩，女孩最爱

张家辉的身材, 我说不得了! 从电影还没推出, 我已经从网上看到他的一些宣传照片。最近也看到一些报章报道说他因在短时间操练出一身完美的肌肉, 而过分控制饮食, 最后得忧郁症。一个如此好的演员, 让我心疼的是他的敬业态度。
虽然得忧郁症但是不但没有影响演出,而且他的演出让人拍案叫绝。和小朋友演的对手戏, 既好笑又窝心。戏里他练习的片段不禁让我更佩服他, 如此高难度的锻炼, 一级棒!
早年他的一些作品都比较搞笑, 这部电影让我对这个演员有了另一个看法, 他实在太棒了。影帝他绝对是。

48岁的肉体，男人的坚持

另外一个值得一提的是李馨巧这个小影后。她的演出很自然而且不扭捏, 为这部电影添加了不少色彩。希望这个小影后长大以后会有一番作为

影帝和小小影后，恭喜电影《激战》

总而言之, 我是强力推荐这部电影就是了

午后的雨天

雨天我其实还蛮喜欢的, 当然首选还是有凉风的夏日。
没工作的日子, 我特别喜欢早上的雨和下午的雨。
好像今天那样, 中午12点就开始滴滴嗒嗒的。虽然那样我晒的衣服都不会干, 但是可以打开窗户, 让湿湿的风吹进屋子来。
我喜欢这种微冷的风。

既然雨天, 我没工作就滚回床上, 看着对面屋瓦上快乐起舞的雨点。像无数个在旋转, 摆弄白色舞裙的舞者, 跳跃然后旋转, 落下。

窗口外有一组小小交响乐团为对面的舞者伴奏
他们的乐器就是我的窗和屋瓦
滴滴嗒嗒
虽然不是什么世界名曲, 但是听了特别舒适, 坦然。是一首没有乐谱的曲子

听着听着, 这曲子快到尾声了, 舞者渐渐少了。
是曲终人散的时候了
天依然是阴阴的, 会有太阳吗? 会有彩虹吗?

肌肉搏斗刺激感官

<激战>
我很少写电影感想, 因为鲜少有好的电影能让我写, 但是昨晚的这部电影, 让我有了想写观后感想的冲动。
一开始当男人建议看这部电影的时候, 我其实心里就觉得, 唉, 另一部无聊肌肉男搏斗的电影。虽然我还蛮喜欢彭于妟, 但是对于肌肉搏斗, 打来打去的电影戏路, 始终不是我的菜。谁让我男人喜欢这样的感官刺激的搏斗电影

《激战》海报

电影的开端, 我心里就在想, 这种高空画面, 移动的时候, focus旁边的画面全都模糊了, 看来就是一部普普的电影了, 接下来的两个小时, 唉。
想不到的是, 我在这电影的中段开始喜欢这个故事, 非一般的戏路, I like !
开始说的是两个主角的背景, 交代的都可以, 当故事去到李思齐(彭于妟饰演)去程辉(张家辉饰演)工作的拳馆开始学拳, 因已报名参加一个奖金百万的格斗擂台, 前面说到他爸爸已经破产落魄不已, 一般故事都是说主角去打擂台然后经过多场赛事终得奖, 然后让他老爸欣慰。我甚至想到也许就思齐在决赛对上辉的这么一个决斗

很意外的是, 思齐不但没有得奖, 而且还在比赛中受了重伤, 而他参赛的原因仅仅是为了让他老爸看见, 鼓励他老爸从新站起来 which he did。
然后辉后来也参加了比赛, 只为了能做一件自己想做的事。
故事后来不但不油, 而且恰恰好。
辉最后只是说自己赌自己比赛的赛事, 然后赢了3场。然而这3场都只是播了第一场而已

整个故事就像一壶好茶, 甘而不腻。肌肉搏斗故事中掺杂一些欢乐和搞笑片段。

戏路故事非主流所以更增加其可看性，不是一般的 happy ending happy ever after 的童话故事结局，一个更接近真实的戏路，在现在电影故事如出一辙的时代，这部电影的故事绝对让你动容。
有笑声, 泪水和紧张刺激画面的片子, 确实是一部值得推荐的电影。

看那些搏斗画面的时候, 我紧张得不得了了, 抓紧我男人的袖子, 呼, 刺激。

演员部分决定写在另一篇, 不想写太长 =D
5个星为满, 我给4顆半!

程辉，为自己走上擂台。

鸡蛋花

有谁不懂什么是鸡蛋花吗？
小时候（小学时候），我家附近草场那里有两大棵鸡蛋花树。草场附近没有什么树木，就那两棵树最为显眼。

不懂当时候的小孩从那里听闻这样的一个说法，让我对鸡蛋花一直抱着既害怕又恭敬的态度。他们说，鸡蛋花就是死人花，说鸡蛋花一般都是在坟场才会有的。小时候对“死”这个字眼特别害怕，就死对我而言就是冷冰冰甚至是血流很多的画面，所以鸡蛋花，也因为这个说辞，沾上了那点怪异的感觉。

长大了，对鸡蛋花多了一点点的认识。确实在马来西亚，鸡蛋花大多都种在马来同胞的坟场，时而也可以在华人坟场看到鸡蛋花的身影。
我很喜欢鸡蛋花，觉得鸡蛋花有那股淡雅的气质。不管身在什么地方，它的花依然吸引你的目光。虽然只是白色的5瓣花瓣，淡淡的黄色从中间攀出来，不带浓烈的香味，但是就是那么的淡雅。
在我开始留意鸡蛋花的倩影开始，我发现鸡蛋花不止白色，甚至有红色，紫色的，最新的还有好几个颜色的鸡蛋花，我叫它hybrid鸡蛋花。这个hybrid的鸡蛋花正是我种的那款鸡蛋花 =)

鸡蛋花很美吧，它主人。人比花娇啊

这个鸡蛋花树是我在某个心血来潮的下午去搬回来的，那时候在花圃，还看不到花瓣长什么颜色，就抱着那种买彩票的心情买下的。
回到家，自己忙了好像快2个小时吧，从清理新花盆，到移盆、加泥土什么的。
最后就等！
等了有2、3个月，花苞慢慢才开。
某个早上，它开了。
好像彩绘那样才有的花瓣色，3色，从内里的那点黄渐层的染红色，外围的那点白。

不知道从什么时候开始，我开始对身边的某些东西开始执着起来。
我迷恋鸡蛋花，不管去到哪里都喜欢找鸡蛋花的影子。

花都开好了

另外我也疯狂的喜欢长颈鹿。不知道是哪里来的那股劲，看到长颈鹿的玩偶，图案我就受不了。
执着的程度，不是非一般的程度。

我喜欢这样

我觉得这阵子的我实在太幸福太享受了
每天早上醒来有暖暖的坏人可以懒着, 等坏人啵了我出门了, 我再继续赖床。
赖到肚子饿了就出去吃brunch
Brunch下来不是去喝茶就是准备去健身。再不, 就去逛逛, 买点材料准备晚餐。
晚上弄好了晚餐, 吃了晚餐就赖在一起, 滚滚滚。
偶尔有聚会就打扮多一点, 没人约没劲去瑜伽就做家务, 和我家肥妞找乐子玩。
周末他要是没工作, 我们就会娘家去, 回去一起窝着。他要是得工作, 我就去找他吃午餐还是晚餐。

很多人说幸福很难。
说小时候, 简单的就很幸福; 长大了, 幸福只要很简单, 但是简单太难了
其实幸福很简单, 我不是一个满腹大理想要改变世界的人, 我没那么伟大
我只希望我可以改变我和他的小小世界, 让他让我让我们的家人朋友都幸福, 我就很幸福很满意了。

停车位

话说找停车位，真的靠运气，泥马！

这样的停车场只有半夜才会有吧？

不知道有没有人试过在一个停车场转了好几十圈，依然找不到位子呢？
我没有，哈哈 （那个骄傲的脸！）
我还蛮有运气的就停车位这个方面说。
有个晚上和坏人去看电影，他忽然有感而发，指着ONE U顶楼电影院外面的那排停车位说，这个是永远停不到的位子，然后又是一连串的牢骚。（发牢骚是他的每天必做）
停车位这个变成我每天考验自己当天运气的一个REFERENCE 哈哈。
如果那天我很轻易的找到了停车位，走运了，我就会觉得自己今天铁定走运哈哈。
如果要转了好几圈才有一个位子，心里就会闷说今天运气好像没那么好，不会的，等下一定会好起来的！

好吧，我承认我就是要走好运就是了。哈哈
明天我要停在入口的前面前面前面！哈哈哈哈

这个...这样停可以吗？

电影 说

最近发觉自己少看电影了。
不是因为我在家宅上线看，而是没看。
自从和坏人在一起一段时间以后，就发觉自己少了很多娱乐。虽然少了娱乐，但是没有觉得不好，就纯粹没了那些娱乐的念头。

不知道你喜欢什么类型的电影呢？
电影的种类有很多，而我比较钟爱的那几个类型，从高中到现在就没有变过，只是加了另一类型的电影。
打从高中我就特喜欢那些细水长流的电影，那些必须整整2个小时都要ENGAGE的电影。
喜欢剧情片，特别是题材别出心裁的那些，我特别喜欢。
也喜欢侦探型的电影，就是那些查案形式的，医学探索的还是刑事破案的特别好看，但是就不喜欢拳打脚踢，那些传统香港侦探电影的必要元素，NO LIKE NO LIKE。
另外就是大众都比较喜欢的喜剧。对于喜剧的故事我比较不挑，但是剧里的对白很重要，演员更重要。不知道有没有人和我一样很喜欢香港的杜文泽和薛凯琪，他们拍档演的更是绝。
卡通我也蛮喜欢的。卡通的动画效果是我还蛮讲究的地方。故事线固然重要但是没有好的动画制作，还是略差一截。动画界的大哥大姐，PIXEL和DISNEY制作的卡通电影都是我会买票入场看的。 其一的原因也是因为我妈咪很喜欢看卡通，她中年妇女纯真的一面。

最近增加了一个新的类型，那就是科幻动作片。我不喜欢打打杀杀的电影，香港电影蛊惑仔的就从来不看，也不喜欢洋人那套血腥的做法。我说的动作片是类似机器人的类的，丧尸的那类。这个，我家老女人也喜欢，特别是变种金刚，她的最爱。
虽然说不喜欢血腥，但是看到女战士敏捷的干掉那些恶心的丧尸，心里的痛快，啊！
最近的电脑制作越来越精。精的是细腻度，精的是精准。
大概自己有点电脑制作的认识和背景，看电影的时候难免讨人厌一些。总喜欢在坏人看得津津有味的时候，在他耳边说，你看你看，这电脑的COMPUTER GRAPHICS真是好啊。看看这个背景，其实所有的演员都只是在布景里，其余的通通电脑制作，多仔细的制作。
哈哈哈哈，有时候我真的难为了他，所以电影开场只要我要求要吃零食，他一定给买。不用多说，你也知道为什么了，不是？

电影的题材越来越相似，我觉得大致上都如出一筹，没必要买票看，最后就不看了。
到底错过了多少电影我不知道，反正都一样，买多几本书看看更好，哈哈

你觉得最近有什么电影值得推荐的呢？
如果有，推荐一下吧 =）

我不喜欢爆米花，也不喜欢旁边的看官吃，因为味道臭臭的，哈哈哈哈

因为安稳所以安定

因为安稳, 所以安定。
为什么下这么一个题目?
也许自己的年龄已经到了这么一个时候了, 身边的朋友不是已经谈婚论嫁啊, 就是孩子的妈了。
婚嫁的阶段。
人生有很多阶段, 这些阶段未必是一定要经历, 但是都会在途中耳闻而眼见。婚嫁就是其一。
是什么让两个不同背景出身的人决定共同组织家庭?
是爱吗? 就我看来, 我觉得... 会下这个决定是因为我们都主流。是社会在告诉我们, 该婚嫁了。是父母在催促我们改婚嫁了。是朋友在提醒我们婚嫁, 是时候了。

而我, 我选择安定下来是因为我感觉到了安稳舒适。
这个男人不是最好的, 也犯过不应该的错, 但是他是我觉得最舒服的人。
我觉得当遇上了那个你和他处在一块感觉自己最舒服而又自在的时候, 他就是那个mr.right了。
Mr. Right不一定是什么都完美, 从没犯错先生。这个 mr. Right应该要是那个让你觉得 yes this is right! 的男人。

搬了新家就是我安定下来的开始
我期待那个属于我自己的家

停滞不进的那个分针时针

早在我泰国曼谷之旅回来后, 房间的时钟就已经不妥, 时间显示错了。很明显电池开始耗尽了
尽管如此, 我和我的坏人都不放在心上。嘴巴说着要给它换新电池了, 可一直都没付诸任何行动。
一个对我来说不是很重要的东西, 我一直觉得它的存在可有可无, 反正当初买它回来就是因为它大平买。就在我醒来的隔一天早晨, 我才觉得它有点重要性。平时它正常运作的时候, 早上如果闹钟没响, 我就用眼角的余光瞄看几点了, 就算是早了才10分钟, 我也开心, 因为这证明我可以继续再懒个10分钟。
那天早上, 我卯足了全力才足以拿到在脚下那个躺在小板凳上的手机。等拿到手机, 闹钟也响了。
懊恼! 虽然如此, 我还是认为它不是那么重要, 就每天错过可以再懒多几分钟的美好时光。
两个星期了...
今天晚餐回来, 分针时针再也不前进了。停止了

漫漫人生旅途, 有很多的人事物在我们身边穿梭, 很多时候我们认为不重要的事情和人就在我们不以为然的时候悄悄离开离逝。
重要性偏偏只在失去了才会了解。
今天在享受的恩赐, 被赋予的天赋, 在享有种种方便的时候, 不要忘了, 要感恩感激。

明天下课了, 我还真应该回家陪陪我老人家。
父母的要求很简单, 只要你回家吃饭, 让他们听你声音, 看看你安好, 他们就满足了。推掉一场无所谓的饭局, 回家看看他们吧。

时钟终于换电池了, 分针时针又继续滴滴哒哒地往前进。明天早上我不必爬起床拿手机了 呵呵

Meeting the Superb Road Users

These days the driving stylessssss of driver back in the town are really driving me crazy. Most of the times, I couldn't help but ask how the hell they passed their driving tests. Kay, maybe they paid for the license as this kopi duit culture in this segment had longed known by everybody in Malaysia.
Here I would like to mention some of  the patterns of these superb skillful drivers

• Slow tortoise drivers. Okay I understand safety first but hello friends, driving at speed of 20km/h or less is not safe. I know is housing area and there might be kiddos ran onto the street but 20km/h or 10km/h is too much. Those driving at 60km/h on expressway and on the fast lane also giving me grief. Is FAST LANE. The speed limit is 110km/h. You can probably keep your safety speed of 60km/h on the slow lane. So if you want to drive safe please get away from the FAST LANE. 
• Braking joyous. Maybe petrol price is nothing to you my rich fellows but saving bit on the petrol enough to buy me lunch or dinner at mamak. Maybe the 2 cars distant is not enough and probably you need more spaces. Can you please stop pressing your brake non stop? May I know why are you pressing your brake pedal when there's nothing in front of you and you are already at slow speed? FYI. braking is petrol consuming. If you are thinking you are driving slightly way too fast just release your accelerator and your speed will be decelerated itself. Brake only when it's required to.
• HID trend. So the given headlights aren't bright enough and HID with 4300k also insufficient for you. Between, are you pleased if there are HID with 6000K flashing at your reverse mirror while you drive? If you can't see the road conditions well at night then I would suggest you some good optical centers for checkup.
• Multitaskers. Yes I admitted that I multitask too when I drive but I still keep my driving way safe. These multitaskers seem to be able to do everything in the car. I even once saw girl putting on fake eyelashes while driving. What do you see? The road conditions or your eyes? Talking phone is acceptable but please keep your car in your lane. Texting is absolutely unbearable. Dah lah you drive with one hand but your eyesight is on the phone screen not the roads ahead of you! Reading newspaper or just reading anything is totally intolerable. Same likes texting. It's dangerous! DANGEROUS!
• Turning into any junction without any kind of notices. Not giving signal at all. I believe these poor one must have given deficient made cars that do not support signals functions. 
• Taking over without any form of notices. These fellow drivers seem to forget there are also others users on the roads or maybe they owned the roads. Some genius even took over suddenly and leaving those drivers behind him a sudden jam brake. My point here is PUT ON THE SIGNAL LIGHTS
• The in-between . Motorcyclists are highlighted over here. Sneaking in and out between cars is not safe and it's uncomfortable for drivers. Sometimes I just wanna shout at them when they scratched my car or knocked my car body or side mirrors. By the way, I understand that morning jam is terrible but please do not knock the car that accidentally blocked your way please. I don't knock your motorcycle when you are blocking my way.  

The mentioned are those I extremely unendurable. 
I hope users on the roads please be more tolerant and understanding thus making the driving journey smoother and enjoyable for everyone.

p.s:Sarcasm to me is an art of language. Therefore if you do not value the beauty of it then you are welcome to leave me alone =) 

GE 13th part 2: 5th May

When I were young, (I'm getting older perhaps) I always had insomnia on the night before any big events.
The nights before teacher's day and children's day because my school is throwing party and I'm allowed to eat in my class.
The nights before sports day because I'm to perform cheerleading tomorrow for my house also participating some running courses.
The night before my first date with my first bf. lol those nights...

At 0000 5th May 2013, I couldn't sleep as well. There are reasons why I can't sleep.
First, I just found out my status in SPR is gone. TIDAK DITEMUI. I even got helped by DAP yet still my status can't be found. From the lady over the phone, they believe I'm not the only one and something must had gone wrong there. She also advices me to go back to the polling centre I saw the other day to check if my name is in the electoral. I were shocked and disappointed. There are some people in my Facebook telling other to printout their status from SPR just in case any things go wrong on that day. To me I thought it is impossible that anyone can manipulate the database of SPR since it suppose to be an independence commission. At the moment, I realise I'm too naive and I underestimate the tricks are playing at that time.
Then, with no doubt obviously I'm excited and trembled about the arrival of the day where rakyat is to UBAH. I told myself if tomorrow I can't vote then I'm to contribute all my effort in making this election smooth. Why aren't I saying a clean fair election? Oh that's because the moment I know I'm not eligible to vote and this is no longer a clean fair election to me.

Woke up early in the morning, I went on to check my status. Three polling centre I checked and nothing. Not found. I also made noises and get a lot to help me out on this issue yet I'm still not allowed to vote. I told myself, never mind. Don't give up. You can help the others. Then I went on to keep an eye on the polling centre. They called it "ghost busters" in action. So basically I'm keeping an eye on phantom lookalike voters aka the foreigners like Bangladesh, Nepal, Indonesian, or even Philippinoes. I really hate it that the people have to do this part. We did this because we all know this election is not clean and fair. The people are all on theirs hands to make sure this election went smoothly and as fairer as possible. After my quick breakfast nearby my polling centre then I went to Lembah Pantai and Setapak. The three location are far apart yet I wished to do anything to aid this election as much as I could.

Everyone was posting their status and comments in Facebook saying the god is crying out loud for this election held also wanting to clean this election using his tears (rain drops). That afternoon, the KL city was all wet. If god heard our prayers, I really wish the two men who were caught at the SJK (C) Mun Yee weren't foreigners but Malaysian with valid blue IC. I were at SMK Danau Kota before making my way to the nearby polling centre. How could the IC be distributed to the foreigners that simply only to give them victory in this election. How could the policemen stationed not responding to the attendance of phantom voters. Over there, nothing much can the people do but to record also to snap pictures of these evidences of phantom voters.

Some chinese who have been living in Malaysia for years and calling Malaysia theirs homeland theirs country. They do not have blue IC but red. The red IC indicates that they aren't a Malaysian yet. However, those who just came here for few days "trip" get himself a blue IC. Is this still fair?

At 1700, I left the polling centre and made my way back home with flags of Pakatan waving along the way. As I passed by many areas in KL, I get honked at very very very frequent. Usually if I get any driver honk at me I will be damn pissed off as I'm a delicate driver but that evening I were so happy. I were happy to get driver pressing their car honks for me for the flags waving. The car honks showed their supportive for Pakatan Rakyat. I pressed my car honk as well replying their support. I think that was the only day I pressed so many times car honks ever since I get my baby car on last November.

Once again if god hear my prayer that day, I were saying I wish we rakyat will win this election and make a better government than the previous ruling coalition. Sincerely, I prayed.
I prayed for my husband's future, my future, my children's future also for my next next generations.

GE13 part 1: Start from scratch

The reason why am I putting this post as part 1 because the journey I have been through is really long. I wish to put my thoughts and my experiences on this General Election 13th into words.
2 years before this, at my 21st birthday day, I did 2 important moves that marked my life.
1st, I signed up as an organ donor.
2nd, I registered as a voter. A responsibility a rakyat hold.

Year 2012, people started to question about the holding of general election. When will the current parliament dissolved? Why is it not dissolving? When is the GE 13th? More and more questions rose as time ticked away.
Year 2013, out of everyone expectation, suddenly the former PM (yes i used the word former) announced the dissolution of parliament on 3rd April. Everybody is shocked including his fellows in BN. Started from that point, the paves to election moved in lightning speed.
222 parliament seats and 505 state seats, the ruling BN and the opposition PR are to fight for. The party to has a simple majority of 112 parliament seats is going to form the new government.

To be frank, since young I'm never a supporter of BN. When I were young, I don't like them because the government to me is not helping the rakyat. Especially during the time Tun Mahathir ruled the country, my family had a real hard time. Heard from my parent about the government and I again don't like them. Then, I went to Form 6 and have more general knowledge about the current government. Hatred started to merge from there. I understand the agreement of our ancestors on the special status of Malays in this country. It's not about the special status. On the day I were born, I've learned and adapted well to it. Only because I learned how unfair the system is in the government structure. At this point, I'm glad I went to Form 6 but not A level.

Then Pakatan rakyat came out with their manifesto, UBAH!
From the EC, there are 2.6 million first time voters from the total of 13.3 millions registered voters. Both politic coalitions are aiming at these first time voters as they are to greatly influence the result of this election. Many activities had been carried out by both the coalitions to promote their manifesto and in hope to gain more support from people. Hey hey Let's not forget the most significant one at Penang state where PSY were invited to be here "free".
Thanks to the Internet platform, people learned more of the happening issues of current government besides mainstream media. Between, mainstream media is no longer trust by the most of the people due to the media only siding towards the current ruling politics coalition. PR manifesto spreads out like wild fire. With the aid of ceramah held across the country from west to easy n to west again. Attendance of ceramah grew dramatically. Rakyat shouted UBAH! Rakyat shouted INI KALILAH.

Obviously the 80s 90s are fed up with the current ruling government. Corruption, slow economic growth, unjust economy, rising crime rate, and doubting the integrity and independence of judiciary.
We rakyat ought to change this current condition. Also thanks to the effort of PR contributed in Penang state and Selangor state, both states had showed good and stable economic growth over the past 5 years. Great changes were seen. People see the results and people make their choices.
Although I did not attend any ceremahs due to my work at night I couldn't make it there but I viewed the videos uploaded by the attendees. The determination in rakyat to UBAH is obvious. Their anger shouts I've heard, you heard it and they heard it too.
Bangkit rakyat. People wake up to realise politics is important. Last time, people have this thought that politics has nothing to do with them. Nobody cares about politics and some even gave up their right to vote. From year 2008, slowly people woke up and realised how important it is.
Now 2013, angry Malaysian. Angry rakyat wants to UBAH and INI KALILAH.

UBAH! INI KALILAH

At 2.10am, 5th of may 2013. I'm excited and I'm trembling to witness to be part of this historical moment.
A lot been spreading words like this is going to be a very dirty election than any before but I choose to be neutral and decided to stand on my own. I still somehow believing in this party that had ruled my country my homeland for 55 years. I never thought that they will playing really dirty dirty tricks to make themselves winning this time.
Until I were tricked. Now I learned. Some news spreading out there on the social media can be true too. Of course I do not deny that some are made up stories or some are simply misleading the people since only a picture and no one are to explain about the condition the truth behind the picture.
Choose what to believe to. I made my choice after I learned big lesson. You are big enough wise enough to tell what's the truth to be.

However putting the sad part of GE13th aside, I saw unity. This unity that never been so clearly shown by rakyat. As a girl growing up in this sweet land with diversity of cultures and different races for 23 years, I should be eligible to voice out what's within myself.
When I were young, I went to tadika (kindergarden) with Malays and Indians. We played together and we learned together. The same languages and same lessons. Then I enrolled into primary school, SJK (C) I went to. The C stands for cina (Chinese). There I saw only few Indians (within my fingers count) and no Malays at all. After that, I speaks only mandarin which is also my mother tongue. Slowly I distanced from other races. I kinda don't like them due to some naive children around me telling stories they heard from their parents about other races. Not until the level of racist but I just simply don't make friends with them then. That time Malays and Indians to me are myths. I don't know anything further about them other than what taught by the moral textbooks.
Next I went to secondary school where I met Malays and Indians now. Slowly I learned they aren't as what my friends had told me about them. They have a total different background from me. The diet, the religions, the language, also the backgrounds. Progressively I made good friends with them. We played, we gossip, we learned and we adapted.
Even though I made friends with others races yet the distances are still there. I know something is wrong but cannot figure out what that is.
Now I know. Is aim. Is target. Is future. Through this year election, the unity formed and grow stronger. We the rakyat bond even firmer that ever before because we hope for the same future and aim for the same goal.
I'm really glad to see all races in Malaysia sitting together talking about the same goal that we are envision for. I'm so touched to see all the progress made to achieve this level of unity in rakyat. I teared whenever I saw the supporters of opposite party showing their effort in making this happen.
Later today I'm to also put my little small effort in making my future, my children's future and my grand children's future better.
UBAH!

1+1 = Gwiyomi

Before Harlem Shake, we have Gangnam style. 

Before Gangnam style, we have party rock anthem. (Everyday I'm shuffling) 

OK. So what's now. It's Gwiyomi.

I watched a few videos of girls doing this Gwiyomi thing. Initially I found it was quite cute. WAS. Then later I felt it's annoying. SO ANNOYING. I don't get what's the meaning of the whole thing at all but one posting and act cute there. 

One of my FB friend asked and persuaded me to do this Gwiyomi video. I refused because I simply can't stand myself doing such cute thing even though I know I'm cute =p

Yesterday I think I were jampi or maybe I were simply too bored at home do nothing. Or maybe I went to a brain wash thing and made me abit kong kam (hokkien: insane) Then... I snapped few shots of me doing the Gwiyomi 1 2 3 4 5 6 poses. 

I wish I don't look too stupid doing these

(Hey life is short. Memory is poor without these stupidity silly past)

*Scroll fast and passed the dumb faces of mine*
I saw the next one which coming up is Hallway Swimming. I shall see how far will this HS last.

Btw those pictures are non edited. Muahaha *Freaking proud*

Hate THIS MLM

I were invited by a friend of mine to a house party recently but I were so regret I went to the party and also of my stupidity.
Initially I thought it is going to be a house party only. Maybe it's someone's birthday party or simply a party for no reason but party. I were having so much fun until somebody, the one who seem to be a leader of the whole thing came out and gave a small talk. Then at that point, I realised I had just got myself into something again. WTHell
Bla bla bla... FML. I showed no interest at all at whatever they were saying until I were "given" permission to leave the place. I know I have no choices but to attend the second part of this planned event.
The next day then I went to their so called office. FML. I had gave enough face to my friend as I actually rushed to the office right after my self pamper time. How I wish to have longer self pamper time session as self pamper to me had become something that only happen once in a blue moon. (T.T)
Then I were blessed that day because the long winded meaningless brain wash time ended just few minutes after I get seated. Muahaha. LOL in my heart teehee. But! My nightmare hasn't end just right there. Yes. Hasn't. WTHHHHHell. Then I were leaded to an area where obviously is designed for further brain wash time. They have quite good strategy in this brain wash thing. 2:1 ratio. OMG. So one is explaining about the products, the background, bla bla bla about the company and the other one (my friend) was there just to agreeing on any shit the other said. It's a superb level of brain washing.
They put pretty much emphasise on the system of theirs isn't direct sales yet no matter how much effort they put in to convince me it isn't, I still see it as direct sales. I still hating it. I tried to be good and even explained to them why am I hating direct sales or MLM but they just couldn't bear with my principles. FINE. WHATEVER
This MLM ( Multilevel marketing) thingy has become the most use tool nowadays worldwide. Youngsters today dream big but wishing to get to their dream without working for it and this unhealthy trend is used up by some big bad ass and further promoted by them. They brain washed the young with big attractive figures and asked for a certain amount of money from the young. The source of this starter money has never been question. All these people care is only money.
Who knows the money might be the saving of their poor parent or grandparents. It might be money he/she stole from where else. How can a youngster take out such large amount of money if he/she doesn't even work before.

Anyway I wish whomever working on this MLM will stop bugging me. I'm annoyed. Irritated.
Thanks for your "kind" intention in wanting to make my life better and work lesser but I love working and earning what I worked for.
This might be another scam. The name of this company I shall keep it unless it's question.

等待寻找因为...

      男生有好几种。有花心大萝卜，也有呆呆的，还有就是最傻的那号，用情最深的。女生最讨厌却最抗拒不了的就是花心大萝卜。无他，就这种男生最会抓女生的心态。最后被甩开了，才恨恨地想起自己的天真，以为浪子为自己回头了。呆呆的嘛，女生一般不喜欢和这类型的交往，但是结婚对象都会选择这些呆瓜男生，因为欺负他总比被欺负好。最后就是女生最容易错过的，傻子男生。

      到底是为什么我一直强调用情深的男生就傻。电影里、电视剧里都不乏这些角色，傻傻的在女孩身边默默的耕耘付出，女生即使知道，还是会向着那个帅气的男生。最后受伤了，才发觉这个傻子，却不代表就圆满大结局。傻子不过就只会是疗伤的短暂码头。复原了，女生还是会继续寻找下个码头。傻子学不会，女生也不会懂，最后大家浮浮沉沉继续等待继续寻找。